Its been few years now, since I have known you. And with every passing year, you have become an eternal part of my life. You came in my life like an everglow. It is not a word, it is a feeling that you gave me, the everglow. Ironically, you never played cold because you gave me light when I was cold. Many people came in my life and many left but you have always stayed by my side like a diamond glowing in darkness.
It all started when I was a child, and lying down beside my grandmother on the terrace we use to count stars. Stars have always attracted me. I always wanted to find out the mystery behind them. And on one of those nights, the sky was full of stars. I felt like giving my heart to them, they were looking so beautiful. It looked as if they were shining for me. For they were all yellow. And as the night became more and more dark, they looked prettier than before
Even though I had read books of the legends and the myths, Achilles and his gold, Hercules and his gifts, Spiderman’s control, And Batman with his fists. And clearly I didn’t see myself upon that list. So, I pestered my grandmother to gift me a parachute, round as the moon, so that I could sit on it and travel up&up to meet my friends up there. Because, I wanted something just like this.
Lying in the gutter, aiming for the moon, trying to empty out the ocean with a spoon, up and up, up and up, was what my heart was singing at that moment. I never feared what if? I only use to fear at what if not! Because how can you know it if you never tried it?
So, this was how my childhood looked like. And all those moments faded like a whisper. I lost my grandmother and my childhood in the traps of time. As, the nights turned into days, and my head was full of questions. All I could hear now is the sound of the ticking of the clocks.
I came to know that life was a drink and love was a drug, I came to know about all the cursed missed opportunities, I came to know that I was no different from others, I was also living like others, running in circles and chasing our tails. I came to know that you have to change. Because people don’t accept you the way you are. This made me shiver with pain. I felt like God had spun a web for me. And my only wish was to be a scientist of time and go back to my home, my childhood, my friends. To run away from this trouble.
As the tears rolled down my cheeks, you told me to stop because every teardrop was a waterfall. You showed me light my everglow. You made me realize that I expected a lot from this world and it flew alway from my reach. You told me to close my eyes and dream of paradise. Yes, para-para-paradise. That was the best way to runaway from this world.
I use to think that only things could be repaired, not a broken soul like me. But, you evoke my senses. You made me believe that even when you try your best and don’t succeed, when you lose something you can’t replace and when all your love goes to waste. Lights will guide you home and ignite your bones. And I will try to fix you. You were my everlasting guiding light.
You told me that everything’s not lost. We could also live just by counting up some good things and driving away all our demons. You showed me the beauty in this colorless world. I could still shout out loud to the sky away, to my stars even if times have changed. What I had to change was to my perspective.
And if somebody ask me that after all that you have been through. Still believe in magic?
Yes, I do
Oh, yes I do.
Of course, I do.
The Undomestic Writer
p.s. 1. This was my way of giving a tribute to one of the best bands in the world, the one and only Coldplay.
2. All those people who have never heard of the band or any of its songs might have felt lost in my post. All the words in bold are one of the songs of the band. Everything in italics is someway part of the lyrics of their different songs. Clubbed up in a different way.
3. Those who have heard some of them might me able to relate to it. This is my own way of interpreting their songs. As music is a very essential part of my life and I am half alive only due to music. It is a great get away for me from my clumsy surroundings.
4. If anybody here interested in listening to some of their songs I am providing a link to some of my favourite ones over here:
Fix You (love it in their live performance)
5. Don’t forget to express your views on this post, while listening to these songs. 😁 Enjoy!