कभी कभी

डर लगता है खुद से

रोते वक्त नदी की तरह बेहता चला जाता हूँ

और हँसते वक्त रोक नहीं पाता खुद को

भूल जाता हूँ खुद को

क्या कम क्या बहुत समझ नहीं पाता हूँ

सपने देखता हूँ

तो सब कुछ सच्चा लगता है

असलियत देखता हूँ

तो सच भी झूठ लगता है

क्या सच क्या झूठ समझ नहीं पाता हूँ

कभी अनजाने रास्तों पे बेपरवा चलता चला जाता हूँ

और कभी घर तक के रास्ते पे भी भटक जाता हूँ

क्या सरल क्या मुश्किल समझ नहीं पाता हूँ

कभी कभी लगता है पूरी दुनिया पा सकता हूँ

और कभी कभी

डर लगता है की खुद को ही खो चुका हूँ

Translation: Sometimes I get afraid of myself. When I cry I flow like a river and when I laugh, I am not able to stop myself. I forget who I am. What is more and what is less I can’t understand.

When I dream everything seems true and when I see reality, truth also seems like a lie. What is truth and what is lie I can’t understand.

Sometimes, I keep on walking unknown roads without any hesitation and sometimes I get lost on my way to my home. What is difficult and what is easy I can not understand.

Sometimes I think I can conquer the world and sometimes it feels like I have already lost myself.

P.S. The above lines are dedicated to the people who are trying hard in making peace with themselves and to all those people living their lives in numbing hopelessness. It’s ok.

I have tried writing something in Hindi after 9 years so sorry for any mistakes.☺

Pictures are from the movie “Tamasha”

31 thoughts on “Myself.

  1. Ok, honestly I read this a while ago and thought I would come up with something for a comment but I am still speechless. Any compliment wouldn’t possibly justify the beauty of this poem.

    And compliment aside, the truth – aren’t we all a little lost? None of us have been given any guidebook and so we are just navigating on our own terms. Some may seem pretty good at it while others are struggling but we are all moving forward. After little setbacks & whole lot of questioning, with desperate soul-searching & some support, we would eventually be where we are meant to be. Belief – that’s all that matters.

    Don’t worry, be happy. (कितना सही है ना? कभी कभी थोड़े से शब्द कितना कुछ कह जाते हैं।) 🙂

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    1. Yeah, sometimes all we need is to experience or feel something and words don’t matter in that case. In fact the lines in this poem also state the helplessness we all experience when we try to put into words what exactly we are feeling about. Sometimes I even get surprised by myself in certain situations, I mean what kind of person I am really.
      And yes, I guess this happens with everyone at some point in their lives. I agree with you, belief is all that matters.
      Thank you so much for your kind words! 😊😊

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