Spiral

Me: Alright I could write about this...

Also Me: But, wait I think it’s too negative!

Me: Ok, may be I can try writing that…

Also Me: Heck No! It’s too mainstream.

(Starts scribbling gibberish at the back of my notebook that turns into drawing random patterns and circles)

With every pattern I draw, I find myself getting lost a little bit more. The search for topic for my next WordPress post, is pleasantly disturbed by this oddly satisfying exercise. I draw a circular line and instead of joining the end, I bend it a bit towards centre, repeating it again, that turns into a spiral pattern.

This made me ponder over my life, especially the last few months in which a lot has happened. I am still in the process of accepting the reality. May be, the spiral pattern reflects my state of mind.

Suddenly, a song comes on my mind. A song that I very well remember, a song that I used to listen to incessantly at one point in my life and a song that I really want to forget right now. Because at one point you need to outgrow few things that were once important to you, at some point of your life. May be, writing about it will make it easier. The song is The Scientist by Coldplay. The lyrics that keeps on bugging me right now:

Tell me your secrets

And ask me your questions

Oh let’s go back to the start

Running in circles, coming up tails

Heads on a science apart.”

The words “Running in Circles” is stuck like a leech on my mind. How much harder I try running away from these words, they keep coming back and hit me even harder.

I remember, at one point I became so tired of running in circles, doing all the things that were futile and hopeless at the end. It was the time to take a strict action, to build up strength, that even I didn’t know I had. I was tired of coming to the same ‘futile end’.

To be honest it is not easy, it never was. There was dilemma. I constantly questioned myself at every instant. I realized that I had so comfortably blended myself in this pattern of running in circles and doing the futile things in life, that taking a step back and not doing them looked like a risky road to me. As if doing right seemed wrong for me. It felt something completely new to me- taking a new road, on my own.

The courage of taking a new path, is what I craved for. That’s why I drew a spiral pattern, because I was tired of running in circles and coming back to the start. The slight bend was the hope I long lost and found again- thanks to this thing called Life that works in its own mysterious ways.

Today, at this moment, I am ready to get lost in this mysterious spiral pattern, in this amazing journey, only at one condition of not returning to the start.


P.S. It’s been a long time again, but I promise this time a lot is coming and I am not going back. ๐Ÿ˜Š

I really missed this space, and coming back here is some of the come-backs I look forward to. The longer the wait, the stronger my bond grows with WordPress.

How are you all doing? Tell me some good or new things. May be a song you have been listening to nowadays or may be a book you are reading. Looking forward to your replies. ๐Ÿ˜Š


6 thoughts on “Spiral

  1. The tale of a writer, Pragati and your twist of words making writing an enthralling affair and joy write worth taking. I find the post on the affliction of writing deeply creative and something we all struggle with. I have no plans and at times wonder a topic would be too daring but, ultimately, shall go ahead with it.

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  2. You know, there is a saying, life is a dirt road, and if you keep walking in circles round and round, you’re going to grind yourself into that circular path. The deeper you’ve grounded yourself, the harder it is to get out of that path.

    I’ve found this saying to be quite true. Once you get yourself out of the defined path, you’re free to explore anything and go in any direction you want.

    I am glad that you’ve finally broken out of your path. ๐Ÿ™‚

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  3. Absolutely brilliant Pragati! From the last post on starting over to this, you have made a leap which people keep pondering over throughout their lifetime but only a few realize they have the courage to do it.

    If we look at it technically, something goes around the circle only because there is a center seeking force that constantly act on it and make it revolve around that center – centripetal force as we call it. Even if it is given a tangential or lateral nudge (external influence), it will only cause the radius to change but you would continue to go in circles (because the string of attachment, however fragile or strong it seems is always a flexible one). Hence, it becomes absolutely essential to snap the string altogether & launch yourself into a spiral as you gradually overcome its influence. And the power to do that ultimately lies within you.

    Make that spiral an outward growing one, slowly increasing its radius, ever exploring the space around, entering into new dimensions and probing their depths. There could be more centers like that spread sporadically throughout this vast universe called life, which you may found yourself in the influence of, but with this newfound wisdom, you would know when it is time to snap the string & move ahead.

    It’s wonderful to see you back and I am stoked to read all the future posts you are gearing up for. All the best! ๐Ÿ™‚

    P.S – Ideally, snapping the string would launch it into a tangential straight path which could be baaahhhh!!! :O So I think, for the sake of metaphor we can go with a spiral (hence the word ‘gradually’) ๐Ÿ˜›

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    1. Hey, I missed your comments. โ˜บ Well, thank you for putting your technical yet artistic views on this post. It surprises me every time. Not forgetting your suggestion of making that spiral an outward growing one and exploring more space around. Simply amazing! ๐Ÿ˜Š Thank you once againโ˜บ & I am looking forward to your posts as well. ๐Ÿ˜›

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